May 25th, 2006
|12:29 pm - ::I can see all, all the world tonight::|
It's over. It's two days after graduation and all I can feel is relief. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted. I feel, and always have felt, that my place was not in high school. My place is "out here" in the "real world". I'm so sure of my plans because all my life I've known that I'm supposed to be a teacher. God showed me that at a very early age. I'll be going to calhoun in the fall and I'm very excited. God has taken care of my life thus far and as far as I can tell He's already got my life planned out for me. He shows it to me everytime I look into Austin's eyes and I couldn't be more greatful. I have a life of full of love ahead of me and an eternity with my King. Now don't get me wrong, I KNOW there will be hard times. In fact there will be very hard times. Because God is not going to give me the picture perfect life because that's just not possible. Because if we didn't suffer then we wouldn't appriciate His blessings. But the life ahead of me will be great because it is what God has planned for me and I couldn't be more greatful or more undeserving.
With all that being said, I'd just like to say that this will be my last livejournal entry. Livejournal was a big part of high school drama and a big part of many conversations. Since I graduated 2 days ago and left high school behind forever, I feel it's only right to cease my livejournal existence. So farewell. I love you all and God bless.
Current Mood: relieved
Current Music: Graham Colton Band
April 5th, 2006
|04:06 pm - So it has been QUITE some time|
I figured that you guys might care that I was still alive. I do still read lj's often. It's just that I don't have a whole lot of time to update. So I'll fill you in on some stuff...
We still don't have a preacher at Shiloh and that really is starting to bother me deeply. Generally, I LOVE going to church. I mean it's the one place where I can get away from the world and focus on my Savior, and ONLY on my Savior. But I'll just be honest and echo what Al has mentioned in her previous post...Brother Bob is preaching and I'm not listening. It's getting to the point now where I almost don't want to go on Sunday mornings. I still love Wednesday night church. (Yay! Good job, Corey. Keep up the good work) It's "big church" that's beginning to pose a problem. I love everything up until time for the sermon. The music is wonderful and we just got a new minister of music and I think he'll be great. It's still that other part that gets me. But any who...Time heals all and I think that our church has definatley begun the healing process.
On the Love life front...Austin and I are still going strong. We've been together for 7 months and we haven't killed each other yet. In fact, we hardly ever fight. Sometimes I wonder if it's too good to be true. I'm so blessed to have him in my life. He keeps me sane. And he has the amazing ability to make me smile in any situation. I love him and he loves me and I have to pinch myself to remind me that he's real.
Work is...going. It's still the dress shop just like it always was. But this year I find my patience growing thinner and thinner at an earlier time. I'm just so tired of spoiled girls yelling at their moms because they can't have everything they want. I'm tired of being treated like crap and spoken down to. I'm tired of walking into a dressing room to clean it out only to find that all 6394574308 dresses that person has tried on are piled up in one big mountain of sequins, satin, and chiffon on the FLOOR. It is my job to hang the dresses back on the rack, NOT TO PICK UP YOUR MESS! That is rude and selfish. DON'T DO IT! Sorry, I lost my composure there for a second...But on a lighter note, my last day is Saturday so Yay for Mel!
So graduation is in just over a month. I'm so excited I could pee myself. I'm ready to get out of this place.
Current Location: My couch
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: ::...killing me softly with his song...::
February 20th, 2006
Sooo my face isn't swollen anymore. Well, it's still a tad swollen. But there is a catch. I still look like a 12 year old. I got my hair trimmed today. And apparently "I want my bangs to start at my nose" means "I want you to hack my bangs off to my eyes"... Grrrr...
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: "Take Me" -Hawk Nelson
February 17th, 2006
|01:29 pm - Ugh...|
I really wish I didn't look like a fatty. Everytime I look in the mirror I have flashbacks to when I was about 5 years old. This experience has helped me make the decision to NEVER get fat. EVER!
Current Mood: Waiting on Austin...
Current Music: America's Next Top Model
February 15th, 2006
So my wisdom teeth are gone now. I got them out this morning. They informed my mother that they had to break them all in order to remove them. So that pretty much sucks...
On a lighter note: Yesterday was Valentine's day. It was a grand day. I got flowers at school then I came home to more flowers. Including white tulips which are my very favorite. I got all dressed up as instructed and Austin got here 30 minutes late. He didn't mean to. He was finishing my awesome card. And I do mean awesome. We exchanged gifts. He really liked his massive card that I made him and, well, I think he pretty much loved the shirts I got him. I got my skirt I've been swooning over from American Eagle, a picture of me and him in an awesome frame, and Corpsebride on DVD. AND my awesome card. He painted white tulips on the front and it looks amazing. I love it so much. Then we left my house and headed towards Huntsville. I still didn't know where we were going. And he still wouldn't tell me. Turns out that we went to The Ledges. It was beautiful. There were rose petals everywhere and the dinner was wonderful. It was so much fun getting all dressed up and going out to eat. I had a really really really good Valentines day. I hope all of you can say the same.
Right now I'm really sleepy ( Thank you pain medication ) so I think I'll take a nap. See you kids around.
Current Mood: Drugged
Current Music: "Chariot" -Gavin DeGraw
February 11th, 2006
Current Mood: Yay!
Current Music: Yay!
February 10th, 2006
Melanie just sent in her FAFSA. Let's pray for her. She needs all the money she can get.:(
February 4th, 2006
|11:02 pm - Makes me smile...|
Staring at the blank page before you,
Open up the dirty window,
Let the sun illuminate the words that you cannot find.
Reaching for something in the distance,
So close you can almost taste it,
Release your inhabitions...
Feel the rain on your skin.
No one else can feel it for you,
only you can let it in.
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips.
Treat yourself to words unspoken,
Live your life with arms wide open,
Today is where your book begins,
The rest is still unwritten.
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Natasha Beddingfield
February 1st, 2006
|11:52 pm - So it's late and I'm still up...|
So (as mentioned in my subject) it is late and I am still awake. Why you ask? Because my wonderful boyfriend, Austin, just left about an hour ago and I can't really sleep. Just thought I'd update you kids on how my life is. Well for starters, today I checked out of school and me and dad went on a grand search for a lap top. Well we found one. That happens to be the very computer from which I am updating. I heart it. This key board is really gonna take some gettin' used to. My love life is finally wonderful. After about 4 years of thinking that I needed to begin looking into joining a convent, I have finally found someone that truly makes me happy. It's really amazing to think that I have only known him for about 7 months. I feel like I've known him all my life. This month (the 13th) will make 6. 6 wonderful months with someone who has totally thrown me for a loop and turned life, as I knew it, upside down. It's crazy how genuinly happy I have become. Not only because I have found someone that makes me smile on a more-than-regualar basis, but also because I have completely given my life to Christ. It's the most wonderful decision I have ever made. I don't worry so much, because I know that everything will be how it's meant to be. My life is in God's hands. And I couldn't be more happy.
On a lower note: IS IT MAY YET?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: "I'll Be" -Edwin McCain
January 24th, 2006
|12:40 pm - Bored in 5th period...|
|Your Eyes Should Be Violet|
Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure
What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion|
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: "Who I am Hates Who I've Been" -Relient K